Moving now!!!

I was laying on my bed today after I took a shower, just relaxing a bit before getting dressed and I felt something. Something moving. Something stirring. IN MY LOWER ABDOMEN!!!!

I waited for a few hours to wait and see if I was just gassy and would pass gas.....but I DIDN'T!!!!

I'm 99% positive I felt our baby move for the first time today!!!!!!

I'm on cloud 9 right now!!

Dearest Baby: Letter 1

Dearest baby,

You are not even here yet and I already love you so much! We prayed for you, begged God for you, and now you are here....growing fast in Mommy's belly. We are so thankful you will be meeting us in October and everyone is so excited for your arrival!

You will know that you were wanted. We went through so much to have you that there is no way you could ever doubt that we wanted you more than we've wanted anything else!

Daddy and I can't wait to meet you in October!

All my love,

Mommy

Nerves, Nerves, Nerves

In about 3.5 hours, we will be getting our second ultrasound and hoping to see a heartbeat this time! I'm so damn nervous about this, it is not even funny.

I did not sleep well last night and when I did sleep I had horrible nightmares about the ultrasound results (and one weird dream where I cussed out the nurses and called them all morons and walked out of the office).

I know that my nervousness and worry is probably going to be for nothing, but after losing a baby a few months ago, I can't help but worry.

This baby is something we've wanted and gone through so much to have and I just don't want anything to go wrong! I want to meet this baby face-to-face in October!

I'll update when I get a chance to later tonight. Right after the ultrasound I have to go to class, so I won't be home until later tonight!

Going to ER later

My midwife's office called today about scheduling my ultrasound (I've been bugging them with messages the past TWO days). The earliest they can get me in is February 22nd. I went ahead and scheduled that, but am going to the ER tonight because I can't wait that long.

I've been having cramps on and off for the past week and they are starting to get me worried. I can't wait a week and a half to make sure everything is where it should be. So, we're not. As soon as B. gets off of work, we are going to have the kids go to my In-Law's house and we are headed to the ER for a baby check.

I know it's not the best thing to do, but I'm worried and cannot take another day of the cramps and worry. I need to know that our baby is nestled comfortably in my uterus. I need to know that the cramps are nothing to worry about.

I will update when we know anything.

A Little Update

I went to see my midwife on Monday and confirmed that we are indeed PREGNANT!!

I had a long talk with my midwife and we talked about whether or not to do beta blood tests. We decided to not add to the stress I'm already feeling and forego the blood tests. Like my midwife said, even if the numbers aren't rising like they should, what can we do but wait it out. Nothing can really be done.

I should be getting my first ultrasound in a little over a week now. We are having to wait on some paperwork with my insurance before we do it. My midwife did say, though, that if it took too long on the paperwork, that she would sneak me in for the ultrasound and not charge for it. She said it would be no big deal since we just need to do a quick peek to make sure the baby is in my uterus and not in a tube. That right there makes me SO glad I chose my midwife for my pregnancy care!

I'm feeling decent. Having a few symptoms of pregnancy, but none have been too bad yet. These are the symptoms I'm having so far:

--swollen, tender breasts

--queasiness from the time I get up until I go to bed

--a full feeling in my lower abdomen

--thirsty ALL.THE.TIME

--peeing more than normal

This is not really a symptom, but my dog has also been acting really strange towards me lately and just strange in general. He likes to follow me now, and before he would just basically sleep all the time and ignore me. He wants attention from me a LOT now. He has been peeing in the house too. He hasn't done this much before. Usually only happens when we are gone for long periods of time. The other day, he stood in front of me while I was on the couch doing homework and just peed in the floor. And now, if we do not put the trash up in the laundry room while we are gone, he gets in the trash and tears through it and makes a HUGE mess. I sure hope he gets out of this soon. It's getting OLD!

The baby is 5 weeks today and I'm stoked about that! We have made it past the 4 week 6 day mark that we made it to in the last pregnancy!

Well, that's all I have for now!!

Nervous!

I will be leaving in a few minutes to go get my second set of betas drawn.  

I am so freaking nervous.  I have been praying hard for doubling numbers.

Tomorrow is the moment of truth!  

Think I might go nuts before then.