FANTASTIC FRIDAY!!

'Nuff said.

4 weeks today. Going to call midwife on Monday and get in for blood tests.

Just pray this one sticks around to meet us in October!!

Blog still on hold

Well, I did test, got a BFN on Friday morning.  Period started Sunday morning.

If we are not successful this cycle, the testing for problems will begin next cycle.  *sigh* 

Might be bringing this blog back!!

This blog might be coming back to life soon!

I was supposed to start today, and haven't!

I am taking a digital HPT in the morning and we will se what it says (I'm leaning towards PREGNANT)!!!!!!!!!!

This blog on hold for a while

I went to the ER today because I had some bad pain.

Found out my beta numbers today were 23.  The doctors call it spontaneous abortion, basically I am having a miscarriage without any bleeding yet.

I go to an OBGYN on Monday to find out what is going to happen next.

I'm going to keep this blog, it just won't be active until we get pregnant again.

crying a lot.

I got my beta results today.

Monday--52

Wednesday--54

I am numb right now.  I am scared.  I am disappointed.

I am supposed to go back on Tuesday to have another blood draw.  The midwife is hoping that the numbers will go up by then.  But she told me to be prepared just in case they don't.

This is not the news I wanted.  

I'm here, alone at the house with the kids.  I can't go out of my room because I am bawling and I don't want to concern the kids because they don't even know yet.  I want my husband, but he has to work.

Pray for us.  Pray for my baby.  Pray hard and loud.

Baby bump: 4 weeks pregnant

Here is my little baby bump at 4 weeks!  I will update baby bump pics as I get bigger.  Probably will be monthly updates.

Some pics of last pregnancy test

Here is the last test that I took.  I took these on May 31st.